Can I have a bad day, please?

Today has just been horrible.

Seems that everything I touch falls apart.

It started by waking up to kids fighting through a bathroom door. One was getting ready for school and was taking the last little debbie. The other took it and ran upstairs and looked himself into the bath. Door banging and threats getting louder and louder and I knew I had to intervene.

I let my frustration and fear of leaving the kids alone stop me from going to exercise. I said I would do it later, after we finished school. I didn't.

Last night I was trying to change the settings to enlarge blog photos. I managed to totally delete my custom blog header and template. It is now converted back to the basic blogger template. Makes me sick.

The toilet quit flushing. I forgot about it yesterday so when I tried to flush it this morning I remembered. I was able to reattach the chain and get it working again.

When I turned on the washing machine water started leaking out of the front door. I let it sit most of the day and finally googled it to see if I could fix it. I cleaned the gunk off the inner seal and it is still leaking, but not too bad. I put a towel under it and just let it go.

All day my stomach has been hurting and upset. Somehow I have been glutened. Meaning, I have somehow gotten gluten in something I ate, which I cannot have. So bad upset that I had the kids walk to church across an extremely busy road.

So, today I've pretty much sat and tried to calm my tummy. I haven't cleaned. I haven't checked the kids schoolwork. I didn't cook supper. I have vegged and slightly complained :) I guess I can earn an occasional day like this, but it sure doesn't help me reach my goals. I looked on Pinterest and this is what stuck with me this evening.

I am trying to learn to get up and go even when I don't feel like it. Even when it's cold. Even when it's hot. Even when I have a busy day and a late start. Even when I am a little under the weather. I may have to modify my workout, but a 10 minute walk always makes me feel better than doing nothing. These old habits are hard to break.

Starting Body for Life on Monday

I am starting Body for Life on Monday. I will be doing a freezer cooking day the first of the week so that I can cook up my meals and have them ready. I am going to journal it on my other blog and will just update occasionally on here. If you would like to join in please join in at Bustin the Big Booty.

New beginnings

Writing that blog title I want to laugh. Out loud. How many "new beginnings" have you had? I have had so many Monday diet starts and then Monday comes and I turn it into Tomorrow. Yep, I am good like that. Today...my new motto. Today I will start, I will begin again, I will do what I can. I can't keep waiting. My weight is not only ugly it is such a deterrent to my life. I don't want to be in photos, I can't do so many things that would be enjoyable with my family like snow and water ski, hike, I have avoided beaches and bathing suits for the last couple of years. I LOVE the water. It is horrible. I am finally feeling well enough to begin. So, if you would like to join in let me know. I would love accountability and friends to share recipes, successes, and helps along the way.

I am using up what I have in the freezer and pantry for this weeks menu, and plan to cook up some things to freeze so that I am prepared.

Monday

breakfast- egg and bacon

lunch- ham and cheese sandwich, carrots

supper- roasted Cornish hen, brown rice, green beans

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, yogurt

Tuesday

breakfast- frittata with veggies

lunch- black bean soup

supper- turkey burger in Dale's sauce, sweet potato fries, salad

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, yogurt

Wednesday

breakfast- egg cup with ham

lunch- tuna sandwich, carrots

supper-chicken enchiladas (Body for Life recipe)

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, chocolate pudding

Thursday

breakfast- burrito with sausage

lunch- chef salad

supper- spaghetti, salad

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, banana pudding(with protein powder)

Friday

breakfast- half whole wheat English muffin, egg, bacon, cheese

lunch- turkey sandwich, carrots

supper- chicken stir fry with brown rice

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, yogurt with strawberries

Saturday

breakfast- pancakes (with vanilla protein powder added)

lunch- chicken noodle soup

supper- Quiche

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, chocolate pudding

Sunday

breakfast- bagel with cream cheese

lunch- quesadilla

supper- italian chicken, green beans, sweet potato

snacks- apple with peanut butter, orange and cheese, a treat such as Hershey bar

I am lowering the sugar in my diet. I am still going to have fruits and am making sugar free pudding to try to meet my sweet tooth. I am cutting out diet cokes and drinking water. I am trying to change the simple sugars to complex carbohydrates. I am taking a daily vitamin, and a daily Benefiber drink. I am linking my menu to Menu Monday.

Don't Laugh At Me!!!

Hey, tomorrow is Monday. Does anyone know what time it is? Diet time! I said don't laugh. Yeah, I know, it is like the 400th time. But, I am working hard to get in the right frame of mind to really eat right and exercise. Anyone know Jillian or Bob's number? It also would help if someone would follow me around the block with a baseball bat so that I actually get out and go. I want to lose 70 lbs. It seems like such a big long road, but how do you do it? That is right- one bite at a time. One step at a time.

I am sick of looking in the mirror and seeing this.(Not my husband and daughter!) I want to look like this again. This is the kids and me at Disney four years ago. I was even 20 lbs overweight in this photo.
I don't know what has happened to me. I weighed 105 when we got married and 110 when I became pregnant. I slowly gained up to 129 lbs. I did the Weigh Down diet/ Bible study and lost 9 lbs, then became pregnant with the 3rd child. I weighed 125 6 weeks after she was born. I got pregnant again when she was 9 months old and I was still nursing. It has been a battle and a slow climb upward since then. I have gained 25 lbs since moving to Huntsville. We delivered papers for 6 years so I only got 5-6 hours of sleep during those years. When we moved, my husband took a second job at Dominoes. He brought home pizza, cheese sticks and cinnamon sticks every night. We were also under tremendous stress. I am going all the time and always end up putting exercise off till later.
I am weighing in with Mrs. Darling once a week. Send us any good recipes or tips.

Wednesday's Waddlin to the Weigh In

I have lost 1 lb. this week. It is discouraging, but I am moving in the right direction. I have done a lot better and feel like I am finally on the road to not being so all or nothing. I feel committed to stick with it and make small changes to make it to the end. I can't do it all at once. I have begun exercising and although I have missed some days, I am trying to learn how to fit it in when I have other things to do. I think that to think ahead and regroup when something comes up and try to at least do a little something is a big thing. Again, I want to be all or nothing, but am learning that a small amount is better than nothing. It is like trying to save money. Small amounts here and there and learning different ways to cut spending. Well, I am finding those small areas to save calories or add exercise.

Join in the weigh in and post your progress.

SAT testing/ Diet update

I don't know how I will be with my posting this week. We are doing SAT testing with our homeschool group. I am not used to having to get up and dressed and out of the house each morning. Between that and baseball each evening I can't sit on the computer much.

I am really surprised at how I have been able to consider what I eat and really stay focused this time on my diet. I weigh the cost of the food and have made a few allowances to stray a little, but it has been weighed and I don't let it make me decide to give it up and start another day. I went to a friend's house after testing and she had sub sandwiches. I went ahead and ate the sandwich but did not get any chips. I drank water instead of the sweet tea. I hope that I can continue on and get some weight off. I have a few future events that are mile markers. One is my daughter's graduation in May. Then, my 20th anniversary in July. Then, my birthday in August. 40th birthday. I want to start this season of my life thinner and in better shape to enjoy it. I want to hike, ski, wear a bathing suit, and have fun with the kids. All the recent photos since Christmas have shocked me. When I look in the mirror I don't see what I see in the photos. My mirror isn't full length so maybe that is a part of it. It is sad.

I WANT FOOD!

This is my 3rd day of REALLY trying to eat right and excercise. I did excercise today and on Monday but did not walk yesterday. I have been really doing well with eating and not cheating. I am really struggling today though. And we are going to a Sunday School party tonight where they are serving meatball subs and the rest of us are to bring chips and desserts. I think I am going to eat the taco soup my daughter is making for her and her friends that are coming to my house tonight. That way I will be able to avoid giving up and eating everything tonight.

What do you do to avoid eating everything that is wrong? We have our Supper group dinner tomorrow night. I almost feel like not participating just to avoid parties. It makes it so much harder. It seems like there is a holiday every few weeks or a church or school event where food is right there for you to smell and just tempts you. I am so weak....

Give me vegetable ideas

I forgot that we have a dinner at our supper group this Saturday and she asked me to bring a vegetable. She is making a roast. I don't have any brain cells left so am looking for some ideas from all of you. I am trying to eat low carb so it would be good if it is something that I can eat.

It's Not Even Monday

okay, I am really starting this time. Really. I mean it. And it is not even Monday or the first of the month. If you notice no photos of me are shown of our vacation photos. That is because they are in the witness reloadation program. "Reloadation: the load that I carry needs to be relocated somewhere else" You know how they take photos of you when you are on a rollar coaster and you run to the booth to see what stupid face you were making? Well, we couldn't find mine. I know I was on the coaster! We backed up the page and had to find the family member sitting beside me and my husband looked at me with horror on his face and said OUT LOUD, "That's you?!" Like, Oh my goodness I am married to a woman that looks like porky the pig. I did have on cute shoes, though. I am serious though, not even my family recognized me with my hair blown back making a face like I was about to die. So, I have polished off my South Beach Cookbook (this time
there are not kisses wrappers included in the photo)and am doing a two week jumpstart of combo South Beach/Adkins to get off the sugar and carbs. We did do a lot of walking for what I have been doing so I got a start to excercising.

To help stay on track and reduce the grab whatevers I am planning two weeks of food and am going to shop and then cook up the food so it is ready. My plan for my menu is below.

Breakfasts
W- Scrambled egg and canadian bacon
T- Omelet with peppers and onions
F- Egg cup with sausage, Peppers, and onions
S- Frittata with zucchini
S- Burrito with sausage and low carb tortilla
M- ham cup ( bake an egg in a slice of ham in muffin cup)
T- Scrambled egg and canadian bacon
(Repeat second week)

Lunch-
W- ham and cheese wrap in lettuce with tomato, carrots with Ranch
T- LO white bean and greens soup
F- salad w/ LO spice rubbed chicken
S- Veg soup
S- LO capri chicken
M- Lo ginger teriyaki chicken,broccoli
T- Lo chili, carrots with Ranch
W- salad with LO steak and grilled squash
T- Hamburger patty with cheese peppers and onions, salad
F- Lo Thai veg stir fry
S- low carb tortilla with LO Italian chicken, lettuce, tomato
S- LO black bean soup, carrots with Ranch
M- LO lemon chicken and salad
T- quesadilla with low carb tortilla, cheese, LO meat and peppers, onions & tomatoes

Supper
W- White bean and greens soup
T- Spice rubbed chicken fingers, Broiled veggies
F- vegetable soup
S- capri chicken
S- chili, salad
M- ginger teriyaki chicken, broccoli
T- steak kabobs, grilled squash
W- souffle spinach chicken
T- thai veg stir fry
F- Italian chicken, green beans
S- black bean soup, salad
S- lemon chicken, broccoli
M- Dales pork chop, green beans, mashed cauliflower "potatoes"
T- Greek chicken, roasted or grilled vegetables

Snacks
Nuts
cheese stick/ slice
sugarfree gelatin with whip cream
sugarfree jello- chocolate, banana
deviled egg

This is my excercise routine plan
W- Upper body Firm tape, walk 30 minutes at lunch
T- walk 30 minutes two times today
F- Lower body Firm sculpt tape
S- walk 40 minutes
S- walk 40 minutes
M- Firm Body Sculpt, walk 40 minutes at night
T- Tae Bo 30 minutes, walk 40 minutes at night
W- Start It up tape with resistance band, walk 30 minutes
T- Firm Ab Sculpt, walk 40 minutes
F- Firm Body Sculpt
S- walk 50 minutes
S- walk 50 minutes
M- Firm Sculpt, walk 50 minutes
T- Tae Bo 30 min, walk 50 min

Goal is to lose 4 lbs in the two weeks
I am naming my check in each week Wednesday Waddling to the Weigh In

Weight loss food plan day 6

Monday- Egg,grits, orange with cheese
soup, WW crackers, apple with PButter
HVR chicken, brown rice, green beans
jello

HVR chicken- coat chicken with Hidden Valley Ranch dressing mixed with parmesean cheese. Bake for 20-30 minutes.
Use leftovers on salad or in a roll up.

Week One Diet Update

Why, oh why do I get sick every time I start trying to eat right and excercise??? Either that, or I trip over something and hurt myself. I think I am possessed with a fat monster that just won't let me do anything about it.

I am a person that is gung ho when I decide to do something, so I usually go at it and can't keep up with my expectations. I do really well with competition because I want to win. Unless I know that I am not going to win- then I play like I didn't want to win in the first place. Make sense? I do it with housekeeping too. If I can't have my cabinets completely organized from the inside I don't want to just stuff things in so I will do nothing until I can do it right. I have learned to relax that a little bit and do little bits. I make a goal. So, that is what I need to do with weight loss. I am going to make a goal to do something each week that changes from the past and slowly incorporate changes. If I do more, great, but my focus will be on the goal.

My goal for this week, since I am sick, is to drink my water. I am also going to add taking my vitamin. Everyday. I do not drink enough. I only drink when I eat and have a hard time getting in enough water. We drink two gallons of tea a day (7 people.) I am going to have one glass a day and drink water the rest of the day.

If I can feel better I will try to get back on track.

Too Fat

I started to title this Mama Has A Big Ol Butt but thought I might offend some of you sweet people who don't have "butts". He,He! I said butt twice in my blog. Are you singing the song in your head now? I have been intending on excercising tomorrow for about 2 years now. Yep, two years, maybe longer. But it has really been cold, it was hot and we were in a drought last summer, it occassionally rains or even sprinkles a few snowflakes. Somedays there is just too much to do. If I don't get up early enough everyone wants to stare at me while I try to excercise. Okay, I don't go to a gym because the pressure is too great at how stupid you look. I tried on everything and asked the question, "Does my butt look big in this?" (three times now) and the answer is always, "YES!" so who wants to be seen in public in something like that. If you see my previous post I have some cute shoes though!

No more excuses. My butt (four) will have to just look big, get over it you nosey lurkers that don't know the real me. I can't go through life waiting and being miserable and tired all the time. I am losing fun times of hiking, actually enjoying times at the beach/pool/lake, thoughts of skiing; just wishing to have a life that physically isn't much fun when you can't keep up. I have become a spectator of life instead of participating in it.

My hubbie has been excercising at the new gym where he works for a week and a half now. He is doing good. I have to make it a priority. So, I am up at 5:46 and ready to do this at 6:00. Hold me accountable. I will post my diet and excercise to hold myself to this.

I don't think anyone reads my blog but if you do I would love to have friends to do this with. Comment and we can keep each other on track.