I thought I would post to just mention that I have not died or left my family and gone on vacation alone. I just seem to be at a place where I am emptied out. Not in a depressed sort of way, but just feel like all my energy is going into my children for the week. I have been very discouraged in their behavior. I have gotten lazy in training them and have allowed them to begin questioning me. I am calling them to first time obedience or face the consequences. My youngest has gotten in the habit of totally not completing tasks that I tell him to do. I am always so busy I forget I told him or when I realize he didn't do something we are trying to do something else. My kids are speaking so ugly with their attitude to one another. It is just time to stand up firm in what we expect and let them know that it will not be accepted.
It has been three weeks that I have not done the coupon deals. I just keep trying to eat from my pantry and put off going to the store. It seems like a mountain at the moment. I hope it encourages others who are struggling with couponing to know that even people who always do it need a break once in awhile.
I am coming across women that have allowed me knowledge of issues in their lives that, some of them, seem almost unimaginable to me. It makes me feel the bubble that I have lived in my life. My heart is burdened for them and I feel the weight as I try to take them to the Lord in prayer. I have never been a big person of mercy and interception so this is new to me to feel so much for them. I have the gift of exhortation and am a "Hey, come out of the pit and let's figure out how to move forward." kind of person. These people have issues that have no answers that they are in control of.
It also seems that God is working somehow in that everywhere I turn I am being confronted with someone directly asking me what the Bible says or they say that the Bible says something that is incorrect and I have to outwardly quote the Bible and be bold. I have known that I have studied the Bible and grown, but the thought of having to defend it with someone that is a strong personality and debater was terrifying to me. I think God is showing me that He will be with me to help me remember and be able to be bold.
I hope to be back next week and I hope to finish some projects. I am going to have to start couponing because we are eating up a lot of my food. Have you ever felt that you are on the cusp of the place you are in and relief is just around the corner? In the Esther study one of our lessons had that in it. When you are waiting on God to show up and you just know that when He does that it will be good.